i don't know where else to put this where he won't see it. i don't want him to know how scared i am of this happening.

things are being said and stuff has been happening at my work place that has got me all tensed and nervous and scared almost every second of every day. the guys won't stop hitting on me and talking shit to my boyfriend, stuff that he can hear when we're on the phone while i'm working and stuff that he hears about because of how upset it makes me. it happens every single night that i work, no matter what day it is. even the people that have said they'll back off keep doing it and management won't do anything about it.

i'm scared that sooner or later, he's just going to have enough of it and he's going to end up leaving me because of it. just giving up or getting so frustrated he just can't deal with it anymore. and i'll be the one that has to deal with the pain of it. they'll get to go on with their normal every day lives while i sit there and i cry and i deal with a broken heart because i hate to admit it...but...

i've fallen so fucking hard for chris it's not even funny.

i'm scared that they're going to chase him away from me and the worst part about it all is that i can't control anything that they're saying or doing. i can't do anything about it and everything that i try to do ends up getting shut down in some way or else ends up making it worse and it makes me wonder what the fuck is wrong with people sometimes. they're so disrespectful to not only me but also to a guy that they know nothing about. and they step up in my business as if they belong there when in all honestly they really don't. i don't get why they can't just back the fuck off and leave us alone.

same goes with my friends.

they tell me that i'm insecure with myself as a person and that's why i'm with chris and that he's the same way and it's such bullshit because. to be completely honest, they don't know me in the slightest and they don't know shit about my relationship and they don't know chris like i do. i've known the boy for five years. i love him and i spend almost every moment with him when we're not sleeping or i'm not at work and even when i'm at work half the time he's on fucking speakerphone with me the entire night so he can catch the fucking douchebags in the act. but seriously, i don't want advice, i don't want peoples' opinions. i just want to be left alone.

why can't people just leave me be and let me enjoy being happy?

why do they have to make me feel so insecure and so scared of something so horrible happening because of THEIR actions?

why can't we just be together?